1/18/12

After 5 months, we crossed paths for the second time around. It was nice to see you again Bee.

It was last Wednesday night (Jan18,2012) when I had an early dismissal from the hospital duty, instead of 10pm we were dismissed at 8pm. Bee’s class was cancelled. So that’s it. He went to my school, waited for me to arrive from the hospital. It was good to see him again, I miss him and his car hahaha lol :)) We went to his uncle to do some errands and ate late dinner at KFC before he brought me home. The traffic was so heavy, so we had time to talk things out. Seriously, it looks like nothing had changed the way he treated me, it seems like it was only yesterday that we last saw each other, it seems like it was only me and him. We were giggling, laughing and happy at that moment. I miss those feelings I had with him way back when things are less complicated. But in reality it was long ago, 5 months and deep down I truly know that hell lot of things had changed. Maybe he’s still not aware of those things but I know that there’s already a big change that happened.

I will lie if I won’t admit that I am glad upon seeing him again but I won’t deny the fact that my feelings aren’t the same anymore. There’s already a scar, that no matter how many times I covered and deny it to myself, it can still be seen.

Hello Bee, I know that you’re currently in a confused state, so Imma give you time to think and to reflect until realizations hits you up. I know you can surpass that. It’s not everyday that you find someone who can put up with all your dramas and bullshits. Hold on to them seriously.

Crossing path with Bee for the second time is seriously scaaaaaaaary, thinking all the pains I had in the past, it’s difficult to take the riskssssssss, afraid that history would repeat. IDK what to think or say, it’s just so haaaaaard to say NO to the person you once love and still have a special place in your heart. But hey! I already learned my lessons in the past so don’t worry about me, I won’t easily let my guards down.

Crossing paths with Bee is a mixed emotions. Happy, scary and excited. Let’s just see how things will work. For now, Imma sit down and try my best to relax, let’s just go with the flow and see if this 2nd time crossing paths with Bee is for a happily ever after or rather time to make or end things right.

‘Kung ako sana pinili mo dati, edi sana hindi ka nagkakaganyan, sana masaya tayong dalawa ngayon.=l ‘

*12:25am/January 24, 2012

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